you know, i was looking at some messages and it really made me realized that this group of friends i have are like something i should really treasure very well. But you see i'm scared that we would just split apart. I don't want that to happen. You know, even if i complain about them all leaving me, it would actually just come back to me for not studying hard enough, not trying hard enough and so on. Then comes, "if only" and "maybe" example, "if only i had study harder" and "maybe if you give me a chance i can show you." Technically, even if a person were to say that anybody would that person actually try harder?